Starting weight: 241.5
Day of surgery weight: 231.5
Current weight: 211.5
Months since surgery: 6
Weight loss since surgery: 20 lbs
Although I am glad to be making progress, I will admit to being frustrated with the snail's pace. You may remember earlier posts where I talked about how the band is "just a tool" and that I would still have to work in order to make it successful. I believed that then and I believe it now. But, I really thought it would be easier and that the weight would come off more quickly.
This hasn't been an easy road for me. I've been very disappointed with my aftercare and am in the process of trying to get on with a different doctor. I have trouble getting in for fills, which led me to accept a "too tight" fill in October. I've been stuck. I've PB'd too many times to count. I am often in pain or hungry. I've lost about 1 lb in the last 2 months.
But, I realized recently that I can't really blame it all on my crappy doctor's office and their lack of support/concern/availability. I haven't been exercising. I don't measure my food. I don't plan my meals. I'm not actively following the "rules."
Why not? This is a question that I have been pondering for the last week or so. And, I think I've figured it out. I have been trying to live & eat like a band-ster at the end of my journey and not like one at the beginning. I have been relying on the band to tell me what to do (what to eat, when to stop, etc) but I haven't given myself enough time to learn it's language.
So, now I have to put my money where my mouth is. I need to figure out how to work WITH the band and not AGAINST it. As much as I hate to do this, I am going to start keeping a food log. Not only to track nutrients & calories, but also to track what does & doesn't work for me and my band. This way, I can hopefully figure out patterns and do a better job of planning. I have to realize that at this stage in my journey, I am not experienced enough to just "wing it." I am still learning--and learning requires research & study.
I will probably be taking a break from the blogs for a while. While I will still be posting on my own blog (after-all, this is supposed to be my journal), I may not be reading or commenting on others. I need to focus on my own journey for a while and not get distracted by others.
Cheers!
Lynda
6 comments:
I am glad you will still post. I read your blog and get alot of insight. I am an infrequent poster, but enthusiastic reader. I was banded Aug 24 and am trudging down the same path as all other bandsters. SLOOOOOWWWWWWLY, but weight is moving. I look forward to your renewed work and will get many tips I am sure to help me.
Bonnie
I could have written this post myself. My 6 month anniversary is coming up in January and I am disappointed in the progress I've made. I can't blame my aftercare because it's been great. I keep hoping that my next fill will keep me from eating more than a cup of food, but in the meantime I need to do more to help myself.
I think that people who start out smaller like you did often seem to see slow losses like you're seeing. Combined with STILL not having good restriction, I can understand why you're frustrated. Hang in there! Once you have good restriction, everything gets so much easier. And keep blogging!
You can do it, Lynda! I've had a very slow journey myself, so I understand your frustration. Keep on keepin' on!
Wishing you luck as you get your head around this band. I do know that when I stopped letting the band tell me when to stop eating and kept to the 1 cup of food, it really does work. I was frustrated at my slow loss but I kept going. It will happen. Concentrate on yourself. You deserve it.
I have had these talks with myself before, as well. Sometimes we get off course, but just pull yourself back in and make it work for you. You can do it!
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